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Round One

What I learned in those first few hours, first few days, is that my body would keep going.  It took me a while to realize I was still breathing, my lungs just knew how to inhale and knew exactly when my mind needed a very slow exhale.  The clock kept ticking and the world kept moving.  I relearned this same lesson last night when Sloane's chemotherapy started.  I held that baby girl tight to my chest for 4 straight hours as she innocently slept away.  The nurses kept telling me how great she was doing and I'd let another tear fall and gently nod my head "thank you".

Sloane had surgery yesterday morning to get her port placed and we got admitted to the oncology floor at Riley following surgery. She did great during and after surgery.  She is SO so strong. She will be receiving chemo every 4th week for 2 days at a time and for a total of 6 months. We met about 25 doctors and nurses and have loved every single one of them.  I can't say enough amazing things about the staff here and how well we have been taken care of.

Austin and I have not felt alone for one second during this new journey of ours.  I wish I could name everyone by name who has spoiled us with love and prayer but know that we could not thank you more.  God has blessed us with a loving, supportive community full of family and friends and I know that's why we can handle this.

Please continue to pray to Saint Lucy.  Please prayer for Austin and I, that we continue to hold each other accountable to our faith and that we give ourselves time to learn and time to adjust.  Please pray for Audrey as she starts to soak up more, she is so observant and her little brain is working so hard to understand what's going on with her little sister. Please pray for Sloane, that her body handles the chemotherapy with little to none side effects. Please pray that she keeps her happy, spunky personality that keeps us all smiling.

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge- that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."

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